Saturday, April 30, 2011

**Mmmhmmm. Thanks bro.
Yeah? You really gonna be all cute like that, right now?
See that awkward, lovely girl, and how she walks and talks and kisses you with her eyelashes? There's something lingering around her. There's something cold and dark behind her every gaze.
Beautiful people.
BFF&BF.

I'm feeling so nostalgic.

Already missing this place,

these people,

you.

What's worse is,

I haven't even left yet.


I'm gonna find a way to make it without you.
Don't get your hopes up,

don't let your guard down.




It's nights like these were I stand back in awe, and realize, truly realize, how absolutley beautiful life is.
Laugh. Truly laugh. Let life and all of its folly steal the breath from your body and replace is with the staccato melody of giggles and guffaws; the laughter that comes without fair warning and continues without apology.
"I cannot fathom
the burden of loving me.
Thank you, for your love."
AT: "Yo, apparently ***** thinks you and I hate him."
AL: "We do."

Spilled drinks and shooting stars.

I had never seen a shooting star that big, or long-lived, until that night I saw one with you.
I can't help but think it may have been a sign, foreshadowing what was coming for us.
April 29/30.Stargazing.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

I think that, maybe, I'm absolutely crazy about you, too.

Monday, April 25, 2011





"I guess that it's typical to cling to memories you'll never get back again."
She never told her love,
But let concealment, like a worm i' the bud,
Feed on her damask cheek. She pined in thought,
And with a green and yellow melancholy
She sat like patience on a monument,
Smiling at grief. Was not this love indeed?
We men may say more, swear more, but indeed
Our shows are more than will, for still we prove
Much in our vows, but little in our love.




--Shakespeare; 12thNight
"They told me love was a fortress,
and I had never put it to the test.
And all the while I relied on this honesty,
well in love we are all amateurs at best."


I won't let you close enough to hurt me.

A25.

"I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you,

Do not fear: I will help you."


Isaiah 41: 13

Sunday, April 24, 2011

I don't know whether to be happy or sad.
Joyful or mad.
Excited or calm.
Hopeful or worried.


AT: "Ugh. You and your love language of touch."
WG: "Well, just think that everytime I touch you, I'm just showing you I really love you"
AT: "............................."
WG: "LIKE! I really LIKE you. You know what I meant!"
AT: *dies of laughter*












*** ;)

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Thursday, April 21, 2011

The hands who hold the world are holding you.

Maybe you just settled. Maybe there's someone else out there who meets your expectations. Or even exceeds them. Maybe they're the one for you.
"If music be the food of love, play on;
Give me excess of it, that, surfeiting,
The appetite may sicken, and so die."
You had my heart inside of your hands, and you played it to the beat.

Do you love me, or the thought of me?
"If I lose myself,
please just hold my hand because
I'll come back to you."
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you're not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?

Saturday, April 16, 2011

1 Corinthians 13:2

"I may have all the faith needed to move mountains--but if I have no love, I am nothing."
What a difference You make in my day.






You make me feel on top of the world.


You deserve to feel that way too.
Sweaty palms. racing heart. shaky knees. back to the start





I can't find where the moment went wrong at all.
More and more I wonder....

Friday, April 15, 2011

Do you think I'm funny? Do I make you laugh?
Who ever told you I was letting go?
CL: "What's he gonna do? He doesn't kick box anymore!"

AT: "What are you gonna do? All you do is film!"

CL: "I'm gonna SHOOT him!"





clever little guy.
BS: "Ally needs to cut down on the hatertots!"


**helping me de-stress. :)

Thursday, April 14, 2011

You're not gone...but you're not here

Think of all the memories we could be making...
The poor sun. It's trying so hard to shine through.
JG: "Oh no!! It's the flowchart of DOOM!!"
"I would sell all I own and have and built for more time with you."

Wednesday, April 13, 2011


"For you, a thousand times over."
Thank goodness for new days.
(new chances. new starts.)

Tuesday, April 12, 2011


Reminisce: Indulge in enjoyable recollection of past events


"The best relationship is when you two can act like lovers and best friends. It's when you have more playful moments than serious moments. It's when you can joke around, let each other have piggy backs, have unexpected hugs and random kisses. It's when you two give each other that specific stare and just smile. It's when you'll rather stay in to watch movies, eat junk food and cuddle, than go out all the time. It's when you'll stay up all night just to settle your arguments and problems. It's when you can completely act yourself and they can still love you for who you are."
Please, don't cry, you liar.

A real promise.

"My grace is all you need.
My power works best in weakness."
2 Corinthians 12:9

I'm no good, because I'm so hood.

"You think your life is bad? Someone saw me naked!"
I never intended to lie.
I realize I just said what I thought sounded better at the time.
I should have just told you the truth.

Monday, April 11, 2011


I love when you spontaneously steal my kisses and use every stop sign on the roads as an excuse to steal more.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

I need to learn how to say "I love you" more often.
I feel like if I died any second now,
nobody would know that I loved them.
Gather your own sunshine.
I believe in the little things.
I am perfectly content being alone.

Maybe it's sad that these are now memories. And maybe it's not sad.

Keep calm and carry on.


Hold on to whatever you find. Hold on to whatever will get you through.



Bad news never had good timing.
"I know I can't promise you the future, but I can't help wanting to."
We almost had it all.
"And then sometimes I get scared because I'm afraid of messing up,
or not being enough,
or just not being right for you.
And I really just want to be what you need."

Trust me.


I don't have the right words to say, or any words at all.
But I do have an unbreakable promise that everything is going to be alright.

"Sometimes you need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they'll notice. If they don't, you know where you stand."
She is patient and kind. Never jealous, nor is she arrogant with pride. She is not conceited, or ever rude; she never thinks of just herself, or ever get annoyed. She is never resentful; is never glad with sin. She is always glad to side with truth, whenever truth should win. She bears up everything, believes the best in all. There is no limit to her hope, and she will never fall.
She is love.
We share the sadness.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Bubbles & the Sun

Please embrace the now.
the right here,
the what you've got,
the who you love,
the where you're at.
Please, please do not feel like this moment is yours, forever.
And that you may wish to live it whenever you please.
Because I promise you,
that this moment,
is only here for right now.
And will never be given back to you, ever again.
Please do not rely too much on tomorrow,
for even tomorrow breaks its promise.
Tomorrow is not ours, and may never come.
Please realize that today,
is the only day,
the only chance,
the only moment,
the only life
you are completely sure of
and are given.
There's no time
to wait,
to prepare,
to wish,
to hope,
to dream.
You are in this life right now.
Live it,
Right now.

"The cut on my finger is not a cut but instead looks like a miniature someone took a miniature ice cream scoop and served flesh instead." -TK

I don't trust myself with loving you.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Paper crane upon my shoulder.
11:11 & 12:34.

Waste of : Your time.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Two-Month Tuesday.

No guessing as to who this one's about. ;)


Three- Month Thursday?

Sunday, April 3, 2011

I'm going back to the corner where I first saw you. Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move. Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand saying, 'If you see this girl, can you tell her where I am?' Some try to hand me money, they don't understand. I'm not broke, I'm just a broken-hearted man. I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do? How can I move on when I'm still in love with you? If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be, I'm thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet and you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street. So, I'm not moving. Policemen says 'Son, you can't stay here'. I said 'There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year. I gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows. If she changes her mind, this is the first place she will go.' People talk about the guy who's waiting on a girl. There are no holes in his shoes, but a big hole in his world. Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved and maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news, and you'll come running to the corner, because you'll know it's just for you. If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me and your heart starts to wonders where on this earth I could be, I'm thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet. You'll see me waiting for you on a corner of the street.

So I'm not moving.


Sincerely,

The man who can't be moved

Changing along with seasons...
Go blog about it.
"Translations are merely subjective approximations and that is how I feel about everything I say: it is not what I am thinking but merely the closest I can get to it using the faulty reductive constraints of language. "

-PeterCameron



I can't help it. Sorry.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Friday, April 1, 2011

I'm not lucky, I'm blessed.
Loneliness is over.

Dark days are through.


They say.

You don't deserve me, I deserve better. I'm 'too good' for you. Surpised someone like you ever lucked out with getting someone like me. If it were a few months ago, I'd be caught saying the same things. But I know. That if given the chance, you would prove them wrong. Afterall,
you proved me wrong.