A second spent with you,

is never a second wasted.

I miss the feeling of home,
but i know that in

15 days

i won't have to anymore.

[let the countdown begin]

Can we please give a big warm welcome and a round of applause to December, folks?

How is it that while in the very same place,

I find happiness,

and others are losing hope searching for it?

i'm done with trying to figure people out.

i'm done with trying to figure out what's up, what's going on, what's wrong.

i'm done with over-analyzing all the little things,

and i'm done with trying to pick apart and disect my every feeling.

i'm done with trying to figure out the next 10 minutes of my life,

and i'm done with trying to figure out yours.

i'm done sharing my thoughts, i'm done sharing my secrets,

to you, to her, to him, to anybody, to everybody.

i'm done with trying to cross bridges i haven't gotten to

and i'm done burning the ones that broke.

i'm done trying to help you fix you,

i'm done with trying to express how i feel

i'm done with trying to feel.

i'm done with trying to be in control.

i'm done with trying to aimless navigate my life through a black cloud of darkness

i'm done with holding on.

i'm ready to let go.

An island of hope in a sea of sameness.

You need not to climb mountaintops, you need not to cross the sea,

You need not to find a cure for everything that makes you weak.

You need not to reach for the stars when life becomes so dark,

and when the wind does blow against the grain,

You must follow your heart.

" I love you.
And it's not that storybook, romantic comedy shit either.
It's not a love that grows each day,
or makes me feel like a better man because of its existence.
It's a pretty stationary love that dosen't change-it's so comfortable.
The kind of love that just knows when it's true.
It's not a dozen roses, jewelry, or chocolates.
It's not a cruise ship or a vacation getaway.

It's just simple.
and I love you.
And for once in my life,
it's one of the things that I want to have stay the same. "

Let's take take the train to anywhere-I wanna feel the wind in my hair with you.

SPCA

Sweetest thing.

Thank you :)

Australia,
final answer. :)

sometimes its real.

maybe this time it's real.

"i wonder what you look like under your t-shirt.

i wonder what you sound like when you're not wearing words.

i wonder what we have when we're not pretending."

Don't worry about what I think.

" I'm never speaking up again, it only hurts me.
I'd rather be a mystery than [he] desert me."

18 and still love it.
:)

no shame in my game.

can we just talk about this for 5 seconds?

Nevermind you,

I think I think too much.

"Well maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame,

maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away.

and you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand

and i'll look back and regret how i ignored when they said:
Run as fast as you can."

Stop trying to figure me out.

Do you think there are some people that are just meant to spend the rest of their lives alone?

i took a chance, i took a shot

and you might think i'm bulletproof

but i'm not.

I remember arms reached out too late.
tomorrow and today are only here so long

when there's nothing left to say,

i hear that life moves on.

risky business right here

but it's all to relive the memory

one of the best nights with one of my best friends.

One day.

It's not near, it's here. :)

Maybe we got too excited for our own good.

"Do you pray about us?"

you could be happy and i won't know,

but you weren't happy the day i watched you go.

and all the things that i wished i had not said
are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head.

is it too late to remind you of how we were?

but not our last days of silence, screaming blur

most of what i remember makes me sure i should have stopped you
from walking out the door.

you could be happy, i hope you are.

you made me happier than i'd been by far.

somehow, everything i own smells of you

and for the tiniest moment it's all not true.

do the things that you always wanted to,
without me there to hold you back.

don't think, just do.

more than anything i want to see you go take a glorious bite out of the world.

AT: "Be strong and carry on! That's what I always say!"
JD: "Al...you've never said that."

I know you're scared that i'll soon be over it, but that's part of it all-

Part of the beauty of falling in love with you

is the fear you won't fall.

for those days we felt like a mistake,

those times when love is what you hate,

somehow, we keep marching on.
there's so many wars we fought, there's so many things we're not

but with what we have, i promise you that we're marching on.

i don't care if we bend- i'd sink us to swim,

we're marching on.

I hope you're as happy as you're pretending.

"Even though she dosen't believe in love, he's determined to call her bluff"

"You know what I think we are most afraid of?
Not knowing.
Not knowing whether it's all worth it.
Not knowing why you do the things you do; not knowing the purpose.

It's like when you're little and you touch the stove and get burned because you didn't really know that it was hot.

Not knowing has always hurt us from the very beginning."

you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold

you can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold

Usually, A&P and I have a love-hate relationship..

but today....

it's just love. :)

Don't believe everything happiness says.

Nothing feels better than hiding these days.

I'll be brave, I'll be stronger.

these days everybody wants to find out how the story ends.

You probably think this song is about you,

don't you?

"Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken.

Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what.
Maybe you will find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding.

But there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime,

the one who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself,

is the same person who's been standing beside you all along."

And best friend, that person is you.
If there's such a thing as soulmates on the non-romantic level, the friends-for-life, perfect fit kind of level,
well then you're mine.
You're my bestfriend soulmate.

And even though we live in a world where it seems like all hope is lost,
that trust does not exist any longer,
and real love is out the window,

your love and 13-years of friendship( and counting)

gives me hope.

does it exist?

is it real?

is it out there?

can two people really share it?

can three, or four, a family?

is it undying and unconditional?

does it happen to the lucky?

the unlucky?

both? none?

when it comes around, can you feel it?

if it comes around, i should say...

is it invisible? is it expressible?

can you prove it through a smile, a hug, a kiss?

are we just making up false truths?

or is there actually such a thing.

if it exists, why do people break up, get hurt, lose hope?

if it's so important, why do we take it for granted?

is it hard to find, to have, to keep?

how far can it take you?

should we trust it?

can it really fix things?

does it actually make the world go 'round?

is it really all you need?

does anyone really know what love is?